I was thinking about how I really don't want to run today but that I would do it anyway and I started wondering why I do it. I think it's partially cause it make me feel kinda good and because it makes me more muscular but mostly for my looks. I know that my friends tell me that I look fine but it's others who affect my judgement.
I hate the fact that many people only appreciate us for how dumb we are and how big our goodies are. It's stupid how a D student would make fun of an A student when it should be the other way around. Many people dumb themselves down and never reach their potential just because someone makes them feel crummy.
Yesterday some boy called me a nerd and it really hit my self esteem. I came home and I felt like getting Fs in all of my classes. Then I remembered that, in the long run, it wouldn't help me get a good job or any of my other ambitions.
Still the effect of that one little comment made me rethink everything about myself. And when I see which girls are going out right now I see that they are pretty, skinny, and know how to flirt very well. I am none of those things so it's scary to think that my whole Middle School and High School experience will be filled with regret and jealousy at the social princesses.
I just hope that it turns out better. But I do know that words hurt more than anything else and can change the lives of everyone who is offended by them. That's why I won't criticize anyone on their looks and will focus on their actions. I don't want to be mean to anyone because if I hurt them as much as I got hurt, I would feel awful.
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Teachers
My mom asked me if we had to do P.E. in the heat and that got me thinking about all of my teachers. I think that the harsher the teacher is, the more the students will not do what they are told.
My math teacher is really fun and jokes around with us. That's why we're good about being quiet when he tells us to. Science is the same way.
In P.E. our teacher is rude and makes us sit on the blacktop when it's 100 degrees. That's why no one pays any attention to him.
It's just stupid how they try to boss us around. I know that it my parents can't fully make me do everything that they tell me to, no teacher will be able to force me to do anything. I'm not going to be disrespectful but if they're acting immature then I will too.
I know that this was short but it's all I have for tonight.
My math teacher is really fun and jokes around with us. That's why we're good about being quiet when he tells us to. Science is the same way.
In P.E. our teacher is rude and makes us sit on the blacktop when it's 100 degrees. That's why no one pays any attention to him.
It's just stupid how they try to boss us around. I know that it my parents can't fully make me do everything that they tell me to, no teacher will be able to force me to do anything. I'm not going to be disrespectful but if they're acting immature then I will too.
I know that this was short but it's all I have for tonight.
Monday, April 20, 2009
Spring Break
I know I haven't blogged for a week but it was because I was on Spring Break and it was so filled with so many fun and not so fun things that I couldn't the time to write. Sorry. So I decided to update you to what I did in the time that I didn't blog.
FRIDAY
On Friday I went shopping with my dad and his girlfriend. I bought a shirt from Express. It's really expensive there so I only got one thing and it was 40% off. It's blue and has really cool drawings of lions and musketeer symbols (I think that's what they are) and it says Honor & Glory. I'm kinda into the medieval stuff so I thought it would fit. My dad's girlfriend bought a dress, a sweater, and something else that I don't remember but I kind of agree with my dad that she has way too much white. Color it up a bit.
SATURDAY
Saturday I went to soccer buddy's birthday party!!!!! The theme was Spider Man so she had posters and a red & blue jumper. It was awesome. First we went on the jumper and started dragging (I would say climbing but that word is too graceful) and sliding down. I skinned both of my elbows and my dolphin ring broke. It used to have two dolphins but now it only has one. Tear. TeeTee left early because her thumb hurt. I think she missed a lot of fun because of it but better safe than sorry I guess. We ate and then four or five people (including me) started shooting water guns at each other. I shot Blue Bloods friend (just started the Harry Potter series) on her hand and chased her back to the jumper. I aimed for her back but she dived and I hit her butt. I was laughing so hard. Then this wind started blowing and I was drenched so I felt likie I would freeze. Then we opened presents and finally took a picture on the jumper. Soccer buddy's mom tried to get out but we had already started to slide so she got caught in a tangle of arms and legs just likie the rest of us.
Then my dad picked me up and we had a quiet day.
SUNDAY
I didn't do much but I never blog at my dad's. I feel a little scared at the thought of my parents reading my blog. I'm to open about some stuff I don't want them to know. At least at my mom's I have my own computer.
MONDAY
This was my personal relax day. I stayed in PJs until like 2 in the afternoon and played video games and watched tv. I really didn't have anything to blog about and I didn't feel like it.
TUESDAY
I had planned to wash my dog with Soccer Buddy but my mom took me to visit one of the family friends. I watched her son (18 and still no job!!! Probably the economy) play a video game for 6 hours!! My dog still smells like crap but I have promised myself that I will wash him on my mom's weekend.
WEDNESDAY
I went to my dad's and we had an uneventful day. We watched a few funny movies and this comedian said that instead of crashing into the twin towers, the terrorists should have crashed into Disneyland and I thought that was kind of funny. Not because I like the thought but because of how random it sounded.
THURSDAY
At like 3 o'clock in the morning my dog woke me up by hitting the bed. I was really thirsty but I was way too tired to get up so I fell asleep again. Later that morning I saw that my dog had crapped right next to the bed. So, if I had gotten up to get a drink I probably would have stepped barefoot in my dog's poop. Being lazy had saved me.
My mom got free tickets for a Britney Spears concert so at 6 we left for the Staples Center. I had to pay $20 for parking! But I did like the concert. The Pussycat Dolls were the opening act and they played a few songs that I liked and a few I didn't. Then there was a live circus performance. The most amazing one was when these two guys held a board in the air and this girl jumped from it, did a few flips, and landed back on the board. It was amazing. Then Britney Spears came out and sang until 11pm. She sang Sweet Dreams Are Made Of This by the Eurythmics but I didn't like it that much. I liked Circus, Womanizer, Gimme Gimme, and Piece of Me.
FRIDAY
Friday I can't really remember what I did but I slept like a log so I guess I was busy.
SATURDAY
I did homework for most of the morning. I got so frustrated that I started crying. Then Carey's big boss and his wife (the big boss's). I had a lot of fun talking to them. I went straight back to homework right after they left and had a few minor breakdowns until I went to the pool to relax. I jumped in and regretted it shortly after. The water was freezing! Brrrrr. But them I went to the tanning chair and just lay there for a while. I stayed out for an hour or so and got so hot that I didn't go into the sunlight all day. Then I started my project for the eye. My grandma helped but I got really hysterical and threw a tantrum which is the first I've had since like 3rd grade. I finally finished my math and eye. I could breathe again but my mom was really mad at me. I made it up and promised not to do it again. My family does have ways to push me to my limits so I hope I can keep that promise. We watched Resident Evil: Apocalypse until 11pm.
SUNDAY
I went to this Bulgarian Easter party that my grandma dragged me to. Being stuck in a small car with her and my cousin almost drove me insane. The party was hot and boring and my cousin cried three times because he couldn't keep some other kid's toy. I used up my battery in my IPOD so I had no entertainment. Coming back was worse because I was cranky and my cousin was awful. When we got back Carey checked my homework and I went to bed.
FRIDAY
On Friday I went shopping with my dad and his girlfriend. I bought a shirt from Express. It's really expensive there so I only got one thing and it was 40% off. It's blue and has really cool drawings of lions and musketeer symbols (I think that's what they are) and it says Honor & Glory. I'm kinda into the medieval stuff so I thought it would fit. My dad's girlfriend bought a dress, a sweater, and something else that I don't remember but I kind of agree with my dad that she has way too much white. Color it up a bit.
SATURDAY
Saturday I went to soccer buddy's birthday party!!!!! The theme was Spider Man so she had posters and a red & blue jumper. It was awesome. First we went on the jumper and started dragging (I would say climbing but that word is too graceful) and sliding down. I skinned both of my elbows and my dolphin ring broke. It used to have two dolphins but now it only has one. Tear. TeeTee left early because her thumb hurt. I think she missed a lot of fun because of it but better safe than sorry I guess. We ate and then four or five people (including me) started shooting water guns at each other. I shot Blue Bloods friend (just started the Harry Potter series) on her hand and chased her back to the jumper. I aimed for her back but she dived and I hit her butt. I was laughing so hard. Then this wind started blowing and I was drenched so I felt likie I would freeze. Then we opened presents and finally took a picture on the jumper. Soccer buddy's mom tried to get out but we had already started to slide so she got caught in a tangle of arms and legs just likie the rest of us.
Then my dad picked me up and we had a quiet day.
SUNDAY
I didn't do much but I never blog at my dad's. I feel a little scared at the thought of my parents reading my blog. I'm to open about some stuff I don't want them to know. At least at my mom's I have my own computer.
MONDAY
This was my personal relax day. I stayed in PJs until like 2 in the afternoon and played video games and watched tv. I really didn't have anything to blog about and I didn't feel like it.
TUESDAY
I had planned to wash my dog with Soccer Buddy but my mom took me to visit one of the family friends. I watched her son (18 and still no job!!! Probably the economy) play a video game for 6 hours!! My dog still smells like crap but I have promised myself that I will wash him on my mom's weekend.
WEDNESDAY
I went to my dad's and we had an uneventful day. We watched a few funny movies and this comedian said that instead of crashing into the twin towers, the terrorists should have crashed into Disneyland and I thought that was kind of funny. Not because I like the thought but because of how random it sounded.
THURSDAY
At like 3 o'clock in the morning my dog woke me up by hitting the bed. I was really thirsty but I was way too tired to get up so I fell asleep again. Later that morning I saw that my dog had crapped right next to the bed. So, if I had gotten up to get a drink I probably would have stepped barefoot in my dog's poop. Being lazy had saved me.
My mom got free tickets for a Britney Spears concert so at 6 we left for the Staples Center. I had to pay $20 for parking! But I did like the concert. The Pussycat Dolls were the opening act and they played a few songs that I liked and a few I didn't. Then there was a live circus performance. The most amazing one was when these two guys held a board in the air and this girl jumped from it, did a few flips, and landed back on the board. It was amazing. Then Britney Spears came out and sang until 11pm. She sang Sweet Dreams Are Made Of This by the Eurythmics but I didn't like it that much. I liked Circus, Womanizer, Gimme Gimme, and Piece of Me.
FRIDAY
Friday I can't really remember what I did but I slept like a log so I guess I was busy.
SATURDAY
I did homework for most of the morning. I got so frustrated that I started crying. Then Carey's big boss and his wife (the big boss's). I had a lot of fun talking to them. I went straight back to homework right after they left and had a few minor breakdowns until I went to the pool to relax. I jumped in and regretted it shortly after. The water was freezing! Brrrrr. But them I went to the tanning chair and just lay there for a while. I stayed out for an hour or so and got so hot that I didn't go into the sunlight all day. Then I started my project for the eye. My grandma helped but I got really hysterical and threw a tantrum which is the first I've had since like 3rd grade. I finally finished my math and eye. I could breathe again but my mom was really mad at me. I made it up and promised not to do it again. My family does have ways to push me to my limits so I hope I can keep that promise. We watched Resident Evil: Apocalypse until 11pm.
SUNDAY
I went to this Bulgarian Easter party that my grandma dragged me to. Being stuck in a small car with her and my cousin almost drove me insane. The party was hot and boring and my cousin cried three times because he couldn't keep some other kid's toy. I used up my battery in my IPOD so I had no entertainment. Coming back was worse because I was cranky and my cousin was awful. When we got back Carey checked my homework and I went to bed.
Thursday, April 9, 2009
?????
Hey everyone. Sorry I don't really have antything to write today. I promise I'll have something for you tomorrow.
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
Reviews and Opinions
I'm trying to blog everyday but it's so hard to get into the habit. At least TeeTee's happy. :P.
Today we were talking about people writing comments on what we write so I decided to write about reviews today.
I really like it when people review because I feel that a person has taken some time from their day to tell me what they think about my work. TeeTee doesn't like it when someone writes a bad review but I think that they're just stating their opinions. If you don't like bad reviews then block them out. I don't mind critics because I want to know how to make something better.
Of course some reviews are a very harsh and I don't like how they only focus on the bad things. They wouldn't want me going to their blog and saying that it's boring or not well written. If it's that bad then they shouldn't read it.
So I would rather be criticized lightly than inappropriately. I don't mind a harsh criticism once in a while but keep in mind that I'm only human (I think). I get that sometimes people do bad reviews because they're upset or just want to do a joke but remember that the person who wrote whatever your reading wrote what they felt and it's wrong to say that they're wrong. In their eyes you might be the one that sounds foolish or wrong.
Remember that the next time you review and don't forget to do that when you finish reading this entry. :)
Today we were talking about people writing comments on what we write so I decided to write about reviews today.
I really like it when people review because I feel that a person has taken some time from their day to tell me what they think about my work. TeeTee doesn't like it when someone writes a bad review but I think that they're just stating their opinions. If you don't like bad reviews then block them out. I don't mind critics because I want to know how to make something better.
Of course some reviews are a very harsh and I don't like how they only focus on the bad things. They wouldn't want me going to their blog and saying that it's boring or not well written. If it's that bad then they shouldn't read it.
So I would rather be criticized lightly than inappropriately. I don't mind a harsh criticism once in a while but keep in mind that I'm only human (I think). I get that sometimes people do bad reviews because they're upset or just want to do a joke but remember that the person who wrote whatever your reading wrote what they felt and it's wrong to say that they're wrong. In their eyes you might be the one that sounds foolish or wrong.
Remember that the next time you review and don't forget to do that when you finish reading this entry. :)
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
Blogging
Hey, I know I haven't blogged in a long time but I was at a loss for ideas. So now I have this booklet that I can write ideas in. I'm so excited.
Anyway, I want to blog about, well, blogging. I first got the idea from my friend TeeTee. She would always tell me and my other friends about the great blogs she had seen and made so I thought I should try it.
I read a little bit of her blog and saw a bunch of good ideas so I thought I would try it. At first it was kind of hard to think of something that would catch peaople's attention and I finally wrote that I didn't have anything to write.
Later I tried writing about the things that I did but it seemed like I was writing a diary and not a blog. So I went to see what my other friend, Emily the Strange, had written in her blog. I haven't been on for a while so I forgot. Oops.
I tried to write about something random but nothing came to mind. I'm not a blogging genius after all. So I decided to write about stuff I did and then write my opinions.
That worked out well but I got bored. So I decided to do a survey of what others felt instead of just what I felt. That was fun but it took all of the blogging spirit out of me for a while. That's why I haven't blogged for a while.
I promise to blog more often in the future. Partially because I want to and also because TeeTee will rip my head off if I don't. Bye for know.
Anyway, I want to blog about, well, blogging. I first got the idea from my friend TeeTee. She would always tell me and my other friends about the great blogs she had seen and made so I thought I should try it.
I read a little bit of her blog and saw a bunch of good ideas so I thought I would try it. At first it was kind of hard to think of something that would catch peaople's attention and I finally wrote that I didn't have anything to write.
Later I tried writing about the things that I did but it seemed like I was writing a diary and not a blog. So I went to see what my other friend, Emily the Strange, had written in her blog. I haven't been on for a while so I forgot. Oops.
I tried to write about something random but nothing came to mind. I'm not a blogging genius after all. So I decided to write about stuff I did and then write my opinions.
That worked out well but I got bored. So I decided to do a survey of what others felt instead of just what I felt. That was fun but it took all of the blogging spirit out of me for a while. That's why I haven't blogged for a while.
I promise to blog more often in the future. Partially because I want to and also because TeeTee will rip my head off if I don't. Bye for know.
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